Hello! How’s you days doing?
I’m Noel Ko-zuki.
In this article, I’m talking about when I was in a junior high school.
This part is very important for my life. This name “Noel Ko-zuki” created at that time.
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Well, let’s start to talking about the origin of this name…
When I was in junior high school, I thought that I must have a pen name as a writer. I had been thought what’s the good name…
One day, I found a notebook in my home.
That notebook was a my mother’s. Mother has used that to think my name when she was a pregnant.
I was interested in it. I started to checking…
There were several candidates for names. Leon, Lenon, Reina and so on.
And in that there was “Noel”.
I got a inspiration!
My pen name is Noel!
After that, I came to know that “Noel” means “christmas” in French and “birth of christ” in Latin.
My family name “Ko-zuki ” is conpletely my original.
Ko-zuki derived from “Royal Moon” in Japanese. At that time, I loved a animation character. So I wanted to use a name that would be relevant to that character.
Birth of Noel Ko-zuki was a good part of my junior high school life.
But in other aspects, I was a depressed human…
I was serious since I was in elementary school, I bought antipathy by boys who was making a noise.
I respected myself because I keep a school regulation. And I moved with only my own circumstances.
Looking back now, it is nothing more than a way of living rooted in separation. It is a opposite of spiritual. I can’t beleive my past!
My hardest thing was when I was 15 years old.
I wanted to enter Sendai Daisan High School, but my exam score was always bad.
Could I enter there? I was filled with anxiety.
I wanted to enroll in the high school by all means, so I did terrible thing to drive myself to study. That’s it, to prohibit my hobby at all.
Writing a novel, brawing picture, reading, palying a game…
All I can did was only study until I enter my wished high school.
Let’s say first the conclusion. What was waiting me was melancholic.
As narrowed my horizons, I got into an illusion that I had to keep studying forever.I was irritated in a trivial thing.
If I can’t enter my wish high school…
When I can write my novels?
More the worce, I had a mad view of religion and thought God is a bad guy.
I believed that a destiny is exist and God is managing the destiny of everyone.
My life is already stipulated until detail.
If so, there is nothing change whether I stydy of not.
Would any effort become waste?
If I die, will it be okay?
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